That's Life!

Of late, in my little world...

Lately, I've been feeling a little out of it. Not necessarily in a bad way, just somewhere between figuring things out and realising how much there is that I don't understand. Life is still happening, of course. I'm keeping busy, making plans, and thinking about changing my degree. Perhaps I'm just beginning to realise that growing up has less to do with knowing what you want and more to do with learning to ask better questions.

I've been thinking a lot about people lately. Why do we do the things we do? Why do we make simple things complicated, when so much of life could be easier if we let it? I think, in many ways, we do understand each other more than we realise. We just have different ideas of what things should look like, different ways of loving, thinking, and making sense of the world. Somewhere along the way, we start trying to make everything fit together, even when it was never meant to.

Maybe that's the strange thing about being human: we spend so much time trying to create something that appeals to everyone, forgetting that everyone is looking for something different. Not everything needs to be understood by everybody, and not every part of life needs to be made agreeable. I'm trying to remember that it's okay to be uncertain, to change direction, and to let things be a little unfinished. Perhaps life becomes simpler when we stop trying so hard to make it make sense to everyone else.

Current little obsessions...

lately, i've been a little obsessed with mixed media, the idea of bringing different things together, layering textures, images, words and little fragments of life to create something entirely your own. there's something so lovely about things that don't quite belong together, yet somehow make sense when placed side by side. perhaps that's what i've been drawn to lately: the beauty of things that are a little messy, a little unexpected, and impossible to fit into just one category.

another little obsession of mine lately is doing my mascara in the car mirror before work. something about those few minutes before the day properly begins, fixing my face in the tiny mirror, watching the world go by outside. it's such an ordinary little ritual, but i think i've grown quite fond of these in-between moments, when you're not quite where you're going yet, and the day still feels full of possibilities.

Things I want more of...

more time to learn about the things i love. i want to follow my curiosities without feeling like i need to turn them into something productive. to read books that make me think differently, watch films that stay with me long after the credits, explore art, discover new music, and fall down little rabbit holes simply because something caught my attention. there's so much in the world worth knowing about, and i don't want to spend my life only learning what i'm supposed to..

more time for deep conversations. the kind where you look up and hours have passed, where one question turns into twenty more, and you leave understanding someone a little better than you did before. i want to talk about why we are the way we are, what we believe in, what frightens us, and all the little things that make us human. less talking just to fill the silence, more conversations that remind us how much there is beneath the surface of everyone we meet.

more time outside, taking in life. more afternoon walks, more sitting somewhere with nothing in particular to do, more noticing the way the light falls through the trees or how the sky changes just before evening. i want to be present enough to notice the little things happening around me instead of always thinking about where i'm supposed to be next. life is happening so quietly, all the time, and i think i want to get better at being there for it.